I remember telling God once that if He gave me a choice of senses, He could take away my hearing.
I don't like noise. I sleep with earplugs and sometimes even wear them during the day when my husband is watching his political shows hour after hour. I don't listen to the radio in the car as this is my private space. When I'm alone, TV doesn't even come on.
Or He could take away my sense of smell. I read somewhere that when you don't smell your food, you can't taste it. What a great diet plan. If I couldn't smell or taste my food, what's the point of eating so much of it or the wrong things?
But no. This week I found out I have Glaucoma caused by Pigment Disbursement. There's nothing that can be done about it, other than drops or maybe surgery that may or may not work. I may go blind.
This is when I put my full trust in God. This is where the metal hits the road and I put my faith to the test. Do I trust that He knows what He's doing with me? How is this going to play in His plan for my life? It's an interesting thought. Although I'm scared, a little angry, and a bit confused, I'm also curious about all this.
More later...
